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Hey.

I really don't have anything to say to you, but I still felt like talking. Heh, it's never a good thing when I start talking and I don't have anything to say. 8?   <- face I just made up.

Sooooo oooo ooo um. I was working on a pic and it wasn't going well and I'm not sure if I should just trash it or if I should be the stubborn blockhead that I am known to be and keep at it. I could *probably* make it into something decent, but I'm really doubting it's worth the trouble. I hate adds with annoying voices. Yeah, I'm thinking of giving up on the pic. For now, anyway, I'll come back to it later, though, cause really, I am a stubborn blockhead.

I guy in my art class showed me a book of art by Yoshitaka Amano saying it reminded him of my art. I can *kinda* see why he said that, but only kinda. (The stuff I do in figure drawing looks more like Amano's art (only FAR less interesting) than the art of mine that you see). I thought Amano's art was interesting, but looking at it more now, I find myself quite taken with it. In an odd sorta way.

Is it a bad thing to lose one's standards? I used to take pride in my high standards, and trust me, they are still there, but I seem to be...I danno....losing some of them. I think being a fine art major has done that to me. And having friends who's art I always try to see the best in, it's somehow shaped me so that...I dunno...I guess I see stuff differently. And I don't know if I'm losing something valuable (the ability to tell good from bad) or gaining something valuable (the ability to see the beauty in stuff). The answer to will vary depending on who answers this. I myself have an answer to it, I'm just keeping it to myself cause....really wanna know why?....cause I'm to lazy to figure out how to word it.

I'm awesome like that.



Well....

I can't think of anything to say that isn't boring or perverted.




Don't you hate it when that happens?


I just deleted that picture I mentioned earlier.

I'm tired.

I wanna draw.

I wanna draw but I'm afraid of messing up.

Lousy excuses, I know. But it actually a legit one.

Am I uncool for saying "Legit"? I don't like that term....

Why did I even say that to begin with

You may think this is weird, or funny, or really weird, but really

This is how I think.

Heh.

I could go on for hours.

But you don't want that.

Cause like I said, sometimes, all I can think of is either boring or perverted.

Heh.


Don't you hate it when a song starts playing that reminds you of a person and only one person a person that you like but would just as soon not be reminded of for reasons you won't go into.

I think I just abused the use of second person.

If you wanna read something pretty, check out "Dover Beach". It makes me wanna draw a picture. It's also beautiful. But beautiful like a picture is beautiful, or a movie, it's beautiful because of the sound of waves, and the crashing they make upon the pebbly shore, and the cold night air, and the wind, the sweet night wind that blows softly through the window, and beautiful because of the lights of France that have traveled over 20 miles just so you can see them sparkling across the ocean. It's beautiful because it reminds you of human misery, because in that futile misery, your lover still stands beside you, your lover that you beg to be true, as you stand, watching the blue ocean in the black night, and hear the wind.

Yeah, it makes me want to draw a picture.

That song ended. I actually was thinking about "Dover Beach" and didn't even hear the song, really.

I really don't like the term "Legit."

I made a new station on Pandora, and I put in the songs "Don't Bring Me Down," "St. Elmo's Fire," "Simply Irresistible," "Turn Me Lose," and "I love Rock and Roll." Has it played *any* of those songs? Nope. I think it's played everything *but* those songs. Yeah, I know, I can just go over to youtube, but I like it when songs I like play without me telling them so. Isn't is so much more fun hearing your favorite song when it comes on the radio while you are driving down the road than to hear it after looking it up youtube.

I hate adds with annoying voices.

I'm tired.

Fourteen days, me hearties, fourteen days and then I can watch movies again. It can't come soon enough. I've been doing well, lately, but for a while there, TWILIGHT was starting to look actually interesting. You may be like ".....Jay.....why were you watching trailers for "Twilight" to begin with... " OK, so there is a channel on YouTube that makes "Honest Trailers" for movies, and they have trailers, honest trailers for all of the Twilight movies, and I've watched those all lots of times cause they are pretty hilarious, and so I was wanting to know what the real (dishonest) trailer for the twilight movies looked like. And yes, I was so starved of watching movies that it looked remotely interesting briefly but only because I was suffering from separation anxiety and really wasn't it my right mind. You can stop worrying about me, now. And I am sorrowful over any respect you may no longer have for me. But please, trust me, werewolves with pedophilia are not my thing. Nor is anything else that has to do with that stuff. You know me well enough to know that. If there be any doubt in your soul, know that I love this video www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghPsLc…



OK. I just sent a whole lot of time talking about noting. Yeah, I'm tired.

Take care. Live long and prosper. Like seriously, live for a really long time and do lots of cool stuff.



Jay